Perks of being a pineapple
I am an unusual girl; a smart girl, until I fell in love; always smiling and loves to laugh; will try everything to lighten up your day; gives advice, but hardly ever follows my own; tries to see the good in everyone.

I am shy at first but I do the stupidest random shit when I get comfortable with someone.

I cried over the loss of something I never had. HOW RIDICULOUS.

I have a heart that has been broken more than once but still keeps hope.

I am a girl who gives second chances, when I shouldn’t; always gives more than she receives.

I am a girl who believes everything happens for a reason; who follows her heart, when her head disagrees.

Beatrize Anne | Marian➡BulSuan
dakilanggerlpren:

"Tapusin niyo na yung relasyon niyo kung.."
Kung hindi na kayo parehong masaya sa sitwasyon. Hindi na katulad ng dati. Wala ng sparks, wala ng magic, wala ng love. Unti-unt na kayong nawawalan ng gana sa isa’t isa, yung sweetness niyo nakadepende nalang sa mood niyo. Wala na ding nag-eeffort sa inyong dalawa. Para bang hinahayaan niyo nalang kung hanggan saan kayo dadalhin ng panahon. Mahirap din kasing ibalik yung dati, lalo na kung hindi mo rin alam kung saan kayo nagkamali.
Kung wala na yung tiwala. Kapag walang tiwala sa partner, puro duda at pag-aaway nalang kayo. Isa din kasi ang tiwala sa pinakamahirap ibalik, ito kasi yung pundasyon ng relasyon niyo. Pinagkatiwalaan mo siya na hindi ka niya sasaktan dahil nagmamahalan kayo pero hindi niya natupad yung pangako niya sayo. Kahit sobrang mahal mo pa yung taong yun, kung nasaktan ka na niya noon, pwede niya ulit gawin ito sayo ngayon. Tsaka kapag nawala ang tiwala, eventually mawawala na rin ang love. 
Hindi na ito nakakabuti sayo. Naaapektuhan na studies mo, hindi na kayo nagkakasundo ng mga kaibigan mo, nakakapagsinungaling ka na sa mga magulang mo at nakakagawa ka na ng mga bagay na hindi mo naman usually na ginagawa, tinulak ka lang ng “love” para gawin yung mga bagay na yun. Naging ibang tao kana ng dahil sa pagmamahal mo sa kanya, imbis na makabuti siya sayo, siya pa yung nagtutulak sayo para gumawa ng mga maling desisyon o mga bagay na makakasakit ng kapwa mo.
Kung ikaw nalang yung nag-eeffort o lumalaban. Nag-eeffort para magkita kayo, nag-eeffort para maging okay kayo, nag-eeffort para magpatuloy pa yung relasyon niyo. Yun bang ramdam mo na may mali talaga sa relasyon niyo pero yung partner mo walang sinasabi sayo. Hindi ka niya tinatanong kung okay ka lang ba, kung may problema ba kayo. Wala na talaga siyang pakialam sayo. Mas inuuna pa niya yung ibang bagay kesa sayo. Palagi ka lang din niyang option, hindi ikaw yung priority niya.

dakilanggerlpren:

"Tapusin niyo na yung relasyon niyo kung.."

  • Kung hindi na kayo parehong masaya sa sitwasyon. Hindi na katulad ng dati. Wala ng sparks, wala ng magic, wala ng love. Unti-unt na kayong nawawalan ng gana sa isa’t isa, yung sweetness niyo nakadepende nalang sa mood niyo. Wala na ding nag-eeffort sa inyong dalawa. Para bang hinahayaan niyo nalang kung hanggan saan kayo dadalhin ng panahon. Mahirap din kasing ibalik yung dati, lalo na kung hindi mo rin alam kung saan kayo nagkamali.
  • Kung wala na yung tiwala. Kapag walang tiwala sa partner, puro duda at pag-aaway nalang kayo. Isa din kasi ang tiwala sa pinakamahirap ibalik, ito kasi yung pundasyon ng relasyon niyo. Pinagkatiwalaan mo siya na hindi ka niya sasaktan dahil nagmamahalan kayo pero hindi niya natupad yung pangako niya sayo. Kahit sobrang mahal mo pa yung taong yun, kung nasaktan ka na niya noon, pwede niya ulit gawin ito sayo ngayon. Tsaka kapag nawala ang tiwala, eventually mawawala na rin ang love. 
  • Hindi na ito nakakabuti sayo. Naaapektuhan na studies mo, hindi na kayo nagkakasundo ng mga kaibigan mo, nakakapagsinungaling ka na sa mga magulang mo at nakakagawa ka na ng mga bagay na hindi mo naman usually na ginagawa, tinulak ka lang ng “love” para gawin yung mga bagay na yun. Naging ibang tao kana ng dahil sa pagmamahal mo sa kanya, imbis na makabuti siya sayo, siya pa yung nagtutulak sayo para gumawa ng mga maling desisyon o mga bagay na makakasakit ng kapwa mo.
  • Kung ikaw nalang yung nag-eeffort o lumalaban. Nag-eeffort para magkita kayo, nag-eeffort para maging okay kayo, nag-eeffort para magpatuloy pa yung relasyon niyo. Yun bang ramdam mo na may mali talaga sa relasyon niyo pero yung partner mo walang sinasabi sayo. Hindi ka niya tinatanong kung okay ka lang ba, kung may problema ba kayo. Wala na talaga siyang pakialam sayo. Mas inuuna pa niya yung ibang bagay kesa sayo. Palagi ka lang din niyang option, hindi ikaw yung priority niya.
I fall.
No one catches.
I break.
I get hurt.
I move on.
The cycle goes on.

charmancler:

i’ve never met nicki minaj but i trust her

"We all romanticize the people we adore."
John Green (via psych-facts)

Minsan Active. Madalas Inactive.

gwymelove:

Dear whoever is reading this, I understand how rough things are right now. I just want to let you know that things will get better, I promise. Keep holding on just a little bit longer. I know you feel like nobody really cares. You’re wrong, stop denying it. I care, otherwise I wouldn’t be saying this. You’re not alone, we may be miles away but we’re all going through the same things. Please keep holding on. Please.

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1. high school will drain you. it’s panic attacks in the hallway and crying in the bathroom and eating lunch in the back of the library because the cafeteria makes your heart beat too fast. It’s getting high and throwing up. you will learn a lot about death and how to treat your cuts. You will also learn what it’s like to get drunk and laugh at the stars and how to write poetry that makes the world hurt less. You will read books that you fall in love with. you will fall in love. you’ll get closer to your mother because you’ll need someone to help you with your math homework and teach you how to put on your makeup and wipe away your tears.

2. the first boy you fall in love with will break you. he’ll tell you he loves you and convince you to fuck him in the back of his parents beat up volvo and then he’ll tell all his friends what you taste like and stop calling you before you fall asleep. delete his number and throw away the stuffed bear he won you at the carnival three weeks before. your carpet will be stained with tears and vomit and liquor and you’ll fight with you dad a lot more than usual. you’ll spit up pieces of your heart for weeks. you’ll burn alive when you see him in the halls. you won’t always feel like you’re cracking and a few months later you’ll be falling asleep on the phone with someone else. let it hurt for a little while but don’t let it kill you. never let it kill you.

3. the girl you’ve been best friends with for 9 years will stop speaking to you. one night you’ll make plans with her and she’ll cancel at the last minute because she’s sick but you’ll see her updating her snapchat story with pictures of empty alcohol bottles and blurry eyes and the mean girls who never let you sit with them. try to forgive her. she’s going through all the bloody, broken teeth, black and blue filled nights like you are. everyone’s trying to survive so don’t be too hard on anyone. especially yourself.

4. your teacher will ask the class questions and you’ll know the answers but you’ll keep your shaky hand between your knees and keep your tongue glued to the top of your mouth. don’t bother. speak out. nothing bad will happen. so when your biology teachers calls on you to tell him about last nights assignment, don’t stare at the spinning ground and mumble through numb lips. you’re smarter than you think and nobody is looking at you anyway.

5. you’re not his baby girl. when he tries to kiss your neck and pull you onto his lap, get up and leave. you don’t have to go upstairs with him. you don’t have to sleep with him because he’s begging. it’s not your job to fuck around with boys who can’t remember your name. take care of yourself even when he’s calling you a tease and whispering just loud enough for you to hear.

6. go out. go to football games and sit on hard metal bleachers for hours and take shots that taste like bleach and hold hands with the cute boy from english class. go to that dumb party and don’t complain or stand in the corner. things are always moving. people are always falling in love and laughing and putting themselves back together. be part of it.

7. ask for help. you don’t have to let yourself rot. when you don’t know how to do something in math class ask your teacher to explain. when your heart falls out of your chest and shatters at your feet, ask your best friend to come over and watch bad movies with you until you both feel less dead. when the boy you’re convinced you love kisses someone else, ask your mother to help stop the bleeding. you’re not alone so stop acting like it. no more breakdowns at three in the morning locked in the bathroom screaming. your older sister is still awake. crawl into bed with her.

8. it all ends. high school doesn’t last forever and 6 years from now you’ll be whole again. you won’t remember the names of the boys who made you cry or the girls who fucked you over. you won’t remember the names of the teachers who made your cheeks turn red and tied your stomach in knots. you won’t remember the time you fell down the stairs in front of everyone. you won’t remember what it’s like to want to die. try to remember the times you laughed so hard you spit out your drink. try to remember the people who helped put you back together. try to remember the people who bled with you when things got messy, when they call you at 3 in the morning to ask how you’ve been, answer the phone.

9. don’t forget to breathe.

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9 things to remember when you are 14  (via extrasad)
"Love will either make you or destroy you."
3 am thoughts (via suspend)
 
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